My New Stages of Grief

For most people, a new year begins on Jan 1st and ends on Dec 31st. For me, A new year begins on April 20th and ends on April 19th. I'm not sure if it will be like that for the rest of my life, but for now, that is the date that etched it's way into my being as the most significant of my life.  I … [Read more...]

The Kitchen Debacle

Cherry Tomatoes and Goat Cheese

I think kitchens are for experimenting and restaurants are for food. My friend, Whitney Pannell had posted this lovely appetizer of fresh cherry tomatoes rolled in goat cheese and pistachios. Looked so amazing! I bought the ingredients. I had never used goat cheese and didn't even know where to … [Read more...]

Comfort Stuff

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  We've all heard and experienced the joy of comfort foods. My favorite comfort food is a coke from McDonald's. I know - pitiful! And highly caloric. Comfort foods are rarely low cal and good for you. I have yet to reach for a broccoli spear when in need of serious comfort. Another comfort … [Read more...]

Life is Made Up of Tiny Spur of the Moments

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It was a long busy day of running errands, cleaning the house, and working on transactions for my real estate business etc. It was 9:15 and I still had one contract I needed to send out before I finished working for the day; a fifteen page lease had to be written and sent for electronic signatures. … [Read more...]

Dare to Dream or Live in Reality

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What if I had finished college and become a lawyer instead of heading off to Los Angeles to become a movie star? Neither of these two things are my present reality. I'm not a lawyer, although I do sometimes calculate how old I would be if I went back to college today and actually did that. I'm also … [Read more...]

A Girl and Her Horse

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My daughter posted this on Facebook today All teary eyed.. Today is my 15th anniversary of buying my first horse. That first horse taught me more about life, living and responsibility than anyone could have dreamed of. I bought her when I was 12 years old with my own hard earned money. I used to … [Read more...]

What Do I Want to Be When I Grow Up

Speaking at a Baby Shower on How to be a Power Mom

I have wrestled constantly with the question "What do I want to be when I grow up" for years now. The doors to possibilities are never closed, no matter what stage in life I'm in. Perhaps this idea of unlimited possibilities is what trips me up so much. I get the most satisfaction and the … [Read more...]

I’ve Fallen In Love Again

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Loneliness can make us stupid. Even though my mind knew that there was no way I was ever going to find someone who loved me like Mike did, who treasured me the way he treasured me, who cared for me, (how do I make this line even come to an end?) etc. (I guess that's how) But my heart has felt so … [Read more...]

Come Closer

Grief is A Maze Not a Line

As you know I've been going through this grief maze. The reason I refer to it as a maze is because even though there are a lot of resources on the stages of grief, what they don't tell you is that for the most part, you just feel lost. Yea, you're going to be angry. Yea, you're going to feel … [Read more...]

I’m Seeing Things

I drove past his old apartment the other day and imagined him standing there waiting for me to pick him up to go somewhere. I sat on the love seat last night and was certain I saw him coming out of my closet. Driving down the road today, I thought I saw his car. As I lay in bed last week I … [Read more...]