Happy Mother’s Day – Spoil the Kids!

Yes! These are much like the ones I received for Mother's Day 2001.

I started a tradition in my house many years ago that I would use Mother's Day to spoil my kids. I wouldn't have to be the "mean mom" on one day a year. I set out to do fun things for my kids on Mother's Day. This had a two-fold reason. The first was that I would often find myself feeling … [Read more...]

The Love Altar

What's on your altar?

Mike and I shared an office in the house. Most of our time was spent in that office. It consisted of two matching desks and chairs, a fax machine, a printer, a couple of end tables and lamps, and "The Love Altar." We also called it, "The table of luuuuuuuv." It was kind of like a sofa table or … [Read more...]

Make My Bed and Other Small Steps Forward

my bed

People always talk about taking one step at a time to get through difficult things. But what they don't tell you is that you have to take purposeful steps, otherwise you might find yourself just walking aimlessly about, and eventually it will all work out and you'll find that you've gotten … [Read more...]

The Past Tense Life of Me

Tears fall quickly now

It's day eleven after Mike was escorted to heaven. Tears sit right behind my eyes, waiting for a moment to come pouring out again. It can be almost anything that releases the tear dam. I've had to put a box of tissues in my car, because that seems to be the place where thinking happens the most. … [Read more...]

You Don’t Trust Me!

puzzle trust word

It's heartbreaking for me to watch Mike feed himself. He has a g-tube, a tube that was surgically implanted because he can't swallow. Since Nov 12th, he has not had one "bite" of food. It's all gone in through the tube via a large syringe. He loads the syringe and pops it in. Now that he is … [Read more...]

Glimpsing Eternity

My husband is longing to go "home." The cancer has had it's way with him and has managed to destroy the man who was once so vibrant and healthy. I remember the kids remarking after the first couple of times seeing Mike that, "He stands up so straight." He was often asked if he was in the military … [Read more...]

Perfect Angel Not Deviled Eggs

angel not deviled eggs

They turned out nearly perfect! I had seen deviled eggs that looked like chicks. They are so cute! But it got me thinking, if you can make a deviled egg into a chick, could I make a deviled egg into an angel egg? Well, I decided to give it a try. First I did my no fail recipe for hard cooked … [Read more...]

The Final Birth

final birth

As a mom who has given birth to eight children, I often relate regular life experiences to those of being pregnant and giving birth. Watching my husband in what seem to be his final days or weeks is really not much different. I guess it's a different kind of birth that he's going to experience, the … [Read more...]

Our Oral Cancer Journey

Mike Homes & Land

The journey with oral cancer began back in 1998, before I knew Mike. He developed a growth on his tongue which grew to the size of a marble. A famous surgeon in Dallas removed the tumor  and did a partial neck dissection where he removed lymph nodes in Mike's neck and sent Mike on his way, telling … [Read more...]

Joy in the Midst of Sorrow

pursefrommike

Creating JOY in the Midst of Sorrow For six years, I've dated the same amazing man. Girls, you would be totally jealous how this guy treats me! Our very first date was absolutely amazing! He swept me off my feet. He loved that I liked to be barefoot. I think it's funny considering that he never … [Read more...]